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Every Wednesday at 11 AM, I have therapy. I started back in February and its been better good so far. I've been mostly venting, stream of consciousness style. Jumping from topic to topic before my therapist wrangles me in for the last 10 to 15 minutes. Which is spent on them giving me some tasks for the week to explore based on whatever I was more venting about.
I'm treating it more like talk therapy then expected. But its nice to finally nice to have a therapist that isn't in CBT that triggers my "pure O" OCD tendencies.
Today they suggested that I should write in detail about something I witnessed that day. Just a minute. Something actionable at work to take back my time from a job I hate. Also to not put effort in trying to get my department into the Hotel Workers Union. To focus on putting that energy into somewhere I want to be.
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I turned 35 last week. An age I didn't think I'll reach. It's not too bad. I only cried a little over not being where I want to be. Then I remembered, I'm still young and moved on. I saw I Love Boosters, ate tasty food with my partner, and fell face first off my bike. Not too bad of a day.
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My partner broke his dominant hand because a driver wasn't paying attention and caused him to hit a big ass pothole on his bike. He's a chef and can't cook for a few weeks. He also can play guitar or mix music. But on the bright side he doesn't need surgery and he still has the current baseball season.
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My problem with having hope is that the world is full of possibilities, thus its overwhelming and leads me to become unfocused and paralyzed. Even so, I'm happy I feel motivated even if I'm restless with my progress.
I'm trying to get back to my roots when it comes to my crafts. Remembering my inspirations and what I truly want to put out in the world. Idk thats nice.
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